well ki has been in college for a while and caleb was a high schooler and although he still required attention he had school and work and a busy social calendar that didn't include me so my life has not drastically changed. i do feel a difference i will admit. just a quiet in the house that was busier before. not having a focus of the kids, not having caleb to make dinner for and not being able to spend as much time with ki, but Matt and i enjoy our time together and that hasn't changed.
the hard part for me lately is that matt is so busy. i guess i thought at least if they were gone i would have matt but with another ironman training, going back to school, work, which has included 24 hour weekend shifts, and traveling i have felt lonely and sad. i talked to him about it on the way to the airport on thurs. and he said that we would try and work our schedules out better, the ironman training is temporary and he has a trip to chicago coming up in oct that maybe i can go on. otherwise stop stressing about what you need to do. whatever you are doing is fine. no requirements.
today i went to sat. morning yoga. i haven't been in a while and it was just what i needed. real yoga, stretching, working, and reflecting. i came to a realization there.
i am fine! just be happy with where you are.
i have work which i love on most days, i work out 3 days a week, read, craft, clean, make dinner, laundry, blog and have a calling at church which is about to get really busy.
i decided if i want to take a class for fun i will, there are a few things i am looking into but might do them in the summer but for now i am just going to focus on being happy where i am and being who i am.
there are areas of my life that i continually try to improve and i am going to do just that:
physical health/nurtrition
spiritual
marriage
service
so for now that's, what i am going to do!
