My Struggle...

this is probably a really boring post and no fun pictures but since this is my journal of thoughts, i am writing it. the past 6 months to a year i have had a really tough time getting myself motivated to work out. i blame it on different things and honestly when i do get into a rhythm then something happens like my mom coming to visit or thanksgiving or whatever. i really do want to be healthy and i do other things in my life to try to always be healthy but working out just doesn't come easily. i love yoga and that has always been my steady even when i didn't really want to work out i would still love yoga. now i can't even get motivated to do that or i can't go to my classes at the time that they are or whatever. i am not lazy but i have become lazy about this. i work part time and that gives me more of an excuse that i am a morning person but i am done by lunch and still have time to go to the gym. matt hates when i don't work out, he doesn't harp on me he just adds it to everything i complain about, i just had bad cramps and he was like they are better when you exercise... i walk the dog everyday and a lot of times matt and i will walk at night again when he is home, i love just walking and talking with him but it is not a workout and at the age i am getting to i know i need to be using weights and doing cardio. i don't want to be the new yrs. resolution person and wait until jan. but we have a trip in dec. for 2 weeks and i won't be working out then which again puts a wrench in it but i just have to find the motivation. any ideas? i know it has to be in me and i have inspiration like my friend dawn who runs every morning or my friend pam who did a 10 K in the mud and nikki who put a gym in her garage and works out along with getting her masters and her 4 kiddos. i know i can do it i just have to find it in me.