well ki has been in college for a while and caleb was a high schooler and although he still required attention he had school and work and a busy social calendar that didn't include me so my life has not drastically changed. i do feel a difference i will admit. just a quiet in the house that was busier before. not having a focus of the kids, not having caleb to make dinner for and not being able to spend as much time with ki, but Matt and i enjoy our time together and that hasn't changed.
the hard part for me lately is that matt is so busy. i guess i thought at least if they were gone i would have matt but with another ironman training, going back to school, work, which has included 24 hour weekend shifts, and traveling i have felt lonely and sad. i talked to him about it on the way to the airport on thurs. and he said that we would try and work our schedules out better, the ironman training is temporary and he has a trip to chicago coming up in oct that maybe i can go on. otherwise stop stressing about what you need to do. whatever you are doing is fine. no requirements.
today i went to sat. morning yoga. i haven't been in a while and it was just what i needed. real yoga, stretching, working, and reflecting. i came to a realization there.
i am fine! just be happy with where you are.
i have work which i love on most days, i work out 3 days a week, read, craft, clean, make dinner, laundry, blog and have a calling at church which is about to get really busy.
i decided if i want to take a class for fun i will, there are a few things i am looking into but might do them in the summer but for now i am just going to focus on being happy where i am and being who i am.
there are areas of my life that i continually try to improve and i am going to do just that:
physical health/nurtrition
spiritual
marriage
service
so for now that's, what i am going to do!
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Don't worry, you get used to it and kind of start to like it. I do miss having kathleen around to just do girl stuff with though. Want to go the bridal expo with me next weekend?
Although you don't have kids at home now, you're still mom and will always be.
I still go to my mom for anything: to get a good laugh, to vent, to cry to, to relieve me of my kids, to make a hearty bowl of soup when everyone in my home is sick, to go shopping with. . .moms will always be needed.
You have the perfect plan :) My mom's solution for us leaving (which really isn't all of us since Darah lives there) is she gardens :) I don't know what it is about gardens but it really fun! Btw, I need to get to the gym myself! Ki lives right across the street from me :) And I agree with Aunty Sondra, once the grandkiddies come, maybe it'll be even more exciting and busier too lol :)
I'm glad you're figuring it out. I think it takes some getting used to that we aren't running around in so many directions, trying to be so many things. Enjoy the quiet!
of course you are still busy! and you will always be a mom no matter where your children live or how independent they are :D
I am so glad that you found that moment of peace at your yoga class, I think you are so smart to focus on the joy you have right here right now. You are such an amazing woman...you have touched so many lives in your quite simple ways...you deserve anything you want right now!
Love ya big time:)
I agree with Aunty Sondra. Have fun and enjoy the moments you have for yourself. Then when the kids come back to visit, you can spend as much time as you need to with them. You'll always be their mother and they'll always want to come home. Just ask my mom. haha.
Hey, I have a favor to ask. At an EQ/family activity one time Sam made a really yummy artichoke dish where she baked artichokes with butter and bread crumbs I think. I don't know how to contact her to ask her how she made it, can you pass along my email or phone number so I can ask her? I have two artichokes and looked online but couldn't find anything similar to how I remember Sam did it. We are dying to make it! Thanks for your help!!
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