thinking it through

well i haven't posted in a while , i have done a lot of thinking though. we attended a viewing and memorial service for our stake presidents wife, Linda Kim, she was 60 and died unexpectedly. i deeply feel for the family but i did not know linda well at all. the thing was after the funeral i felt so inadequate. she did everything. she wrote books for her grandchildren, painted, ran marathons, had her own piano studio and taught piano for 25 years at home and at BYUH, she excersized, she arranged flowers for our church meetings,she was a great cook, she went on a mission to taiwan with her husband and on and on. they did say at the funeral that she was always on the go and would fall asleep at the end of a day in a chair from being exhausted. for me that spells stress. anyway i talked to my good friend dawn afterwards and i was saying how i will never have that many people at my funeral and they won't have that much to say about me, she agreed about herself but in her tender loving way said that we have touched people in different ways and that everyone has their own way of living their lives. my new years resolution was to do more, i think i have done better with this but not perfect. i know that in my life , that i have to be happy for myself, that means i do things in my own way, try and please Heavenly Father in all that i do and say, serve others, magnify my church calling and love those close to me.what other legacy can i leave ?