Last night caleb was sick. throwing up. i kept thinking what do i do here, he is 17 and he hates "mothering" so i just asked if he was o.k. and he said yes. i heard him up again so i got up and he was downstairs eating a granola bar, drinking water. i said what are you doing, he said my mouth tastes so bad. i said you cannot eat right after you throw up. about 10 min. later that came back up and he didn't make it to the bathroom. he got up, took his sheets down to the washer and washed them. i got up with him for a little bit, got him a new sheet, told him not to eat anymore and he went back to bed.
i didn't. i layed in my bed for a while thinking. he is going to be in college soon. he won't have me to get up in the night with him when he is sick but i don't think he really needs me, he can take care of himself, besides the fact of eating a granola bar after barfing. i guess the bottom line is we want our kids to take care of themselves but we still want them to need us. and for them i think they want to be independent but everyone needs their mom once in a while especially when your sick.
can you tell i am struggling a little that he is a senior and i feel time slipping away???
